Homeless..

"Homeless"
That’s how I became after she left my life..
I know for certain that ..
Wherever I ran ..how far I escaped ..I won't find a home to return .
Every chair ..wall ..park ..pillow.. reject me ..hate me.
At my return from my in vain journey ..I'll find an enormous nothingness waiting for me with careless smile.
With ice-cold arms .. to hug me a frozen one.
I've been lost when I lost her .this is true.
Seems no way back
Like my hazy relationship with God,
It's misty endless, lifeless days..
No guiding stars after her set..
Tears salt has crystallized in my heart cave,
My soul became an memorial fossil ..won't be ever discovered
once It belonged to a cursed man .. with unknown history with love .
And well-known history of losing.
Losing people ..things ..chances ..times ..joys..feelings ..tears ..
Words .. days.
Losing even his own self.
Vanishing is not the most appropriate description

12/25/2007